"more than i can say" is one of my songs, recorded live today in shrubbi studios. The song is for all the folks who live in the ambiguus but beautiful realms, not easily quantified or categorized. In my quest for making IZ (integrative Zarts) I often come against boundaries that seem porous..... and I opt to pass through.
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Here are the words....
More Than I Can Say
i find myself shrinking when i say that i’m an artist
or a painter of houses
or a carpenter
people nod their heads
as if to say they know my meaning
but i think that i mean something that i haven’t said
i need to find a word that will grow and then explode
like a shell around a nut
a word less like a cage and more like a boat
one that’s filled with everything that floats
water turns to ice and then to steam and into rain and then
joins with dead leaves
raises into plants and into sky and into dances of
hurricanes
words bleed into words and the words are changing meaning and
it’s all much more than i could say
i find myself shrinking when i say i live in philly
or i grew up in a small town in pennsylvania
say that i’m musician or a carver or magician
i always want a wider door
and it’s more than not wanting to be ruled
and more about saying how it seems to be
people may think they know me by my name
but a name is only a footprint where i used to be
i need to find a word that will grow and then explode
like a shell around a nut
a word less like a cage and more like a boat
one that’s filled with everything that’s smoke
water turns to ice and then to steam and into rain and then
joins with dead leaves
raises into plants and into sky and into dances of
hurricanes
words bleed into words and the words are changing meaning and
it’s all much more than i could say
you and me
and everything
it’s all much more than i can say
IZ
To Integrate is to make whole. Zart is the Art of Everything from Z to A.
for more about Zart see "Zart and the Art of Everything from Z to A"